Watching The Past

We have SO many VHS tapes and so far not been able to watch them. One of them was our wedding video, filmed by a friend and not edited or professional in the slightest but captures some great candid moments. Sadly at that time the vicar refused any video of the service and vows ~ annoyingly the following year the very same vicar allowed the filming for my sisters wedding.

After much searching Dave found a working video player in the garage, the next step was to find a way to capture them and record as a digital version.

Amazon came up trumps with a nifty piece of kit ~ The Video~2~PC DIY Video Capture Kit, a snap at £39.95 and free delivery.

I’m not the most tech savvy, a grand understatement, yet even I could understand how to install and use the kit as it comes with great instructions and tips. So once installed started the recording process. You have to watch as it records which initially I thought frustrating but then I became engrossed in the recordings.

It’s a little surreal ~ I know it’s us, yet it feels almost unreal, as if it’s someone else being us ~ did it really happen? What was years ago also seems like yesterday whilst also seeming like a dream. I’m not quite sure how to verbalise the emotions ~ I hope you get the drift?

The other films are mostly hours of my girls as babies and toddlers. Precious glimpses of the past watching them interacting with their grandparents and with my husband, myself and each other.

Having three children so close together was hard work but wonderful too. The girls were so close from the very beginning, bonds that have continued to grow and strengthen. The age gaps are 15 months between 1st and 2nd born, then 18 months between 2nd born and youngest.

Hearing their sweet child voices transports me back, not as a participant but as a voyeur. They were and still are funny, sassy, opinionated, loving and caring girls with so much wonderful laughter, hugs and smiles to give.

Most precious are the parts showing mum with the girls. She was awesome, for me and for the girls. My two youngest had medical issues almost from birth, so much of their childhood was spent in and out of hospitals. Without mum I have no idea how I would have coped, Dave was working 24/7 in his new business to bring in the much needed income. So mum cared for the girls at home whilst I was in hospital with whichever child was sick. This mean the girls grew very close to mum, she literally was like a second mum to them.

What really hits me though, watching the videos, is the laughter, love and affection between everyone.

Now ~ looking at my daughters I can see the childhood dynamic is still there, they are still close, best friends, comrades in mischief making, supporting each other when they have a crisis ~ or their eyebrows aren’t on fleek!

They are all currently together in Amsterdam along with Dave ~ celebrating my first born 21st birthday. Together they continue to forge new memories along with the love and laughter that erupts frequently.

Obviously life isn’t always light, there are times of depression, sadness and tears. With the good there also comes some bad. My two youngest have ongoing medical issues and developed ME (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis) due to their compromised immune system. Eldest also has her own issues, apparent in hindsight, especially watching the videos and diagnosed, eventually, as an adult. Yet with the adversity and different approach to education and growing up came a wonderful bonus of a closeness which possibly may not have been so tight had they gone the normal route.

I still have many more hours of recordings to get through ~ it’s going to take a few weeks to get through them all. Then there will be the editing and cleaning up the images, youngest (my editing whizz) will be helping me with that part. So perhaps a few months by the time I complete the task. It’s so worth it though and I am so happy to have found the kit to help me achieve this.

Scroll to the present and all my daughters are now adults with their focus on their future. Our family has grown ~ we now have two male fur babies join our family, a male Border Terrier, called Taylor and a Jack Russell Pug mix, Loki. We originally had three but we lost our quirky Border Terrier bitch, Skyla Minx, prematurely due to random organ failure at the age of 5.

We still face difficulties ~ we all five have physical long term conditions which challenge us, yet without them perhaps the dynamic would have been different. I used to wish I could change the past but now I’m not so sure. I do wish that the girls had a full bill of health, I hate that they have spent so much time in hospitals of one kind or another. But without those experiences would they have become different people, if so in what way?

The past is the past, the future is as yet unwritten, we live in the moment, in the day. We can’t change what happens but can change our approach to what occurs and how we deal with it.

So here’s to happy memories, celebrating the past and turning towards the future with a happy heart. Living in the moment, applauding the good, coping with the bad and not expecting anything, appreciating everything.

Here are a few images of my girls back then..

And here we are, I bring you forward to the present..

Middle born
Dave & Girls in Amsterdam (yesterday)
The three girls together taking the obligatory “dick” pic in Amsterdam Sex Museum
My gorgeous Dave, travel maker, budget giver and holiday organiser.

Happiness is a choice, I choose to be happy, I won’t let the physical or mental obstacles change that!

So, don’t worry ~ be happy..

Bobby McFerrin ~ Don’t Worry Be Happy

Here’s a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don’t worry, be happy
In every life we have some trouble
But when you worry you make it double
Don’t worry, be happy
Don’t worry, be happy now
don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy
Ain’t got no place to lay your head
Somebody came and took your bed
Don’t worry, be happy
The landlord say your rent is late
He may have to litigate
Don’t worry, be happy
Oh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh don’t worry, be happy
Here I give you my phone number, when you worry, call me, I make you happy, don’t worry, be happy)
Don’t worry, be happy
Ain’t got no cash, ain’t got no style
Ain’t got no gal to make you smile
Don’t worry, be happy
‘Cause when you worry your face will frown
And that will bring everybody down
So don’t worry, be happy
Don’t worry, be happy now
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy
Now there, is this song I wrote
I hope you learned note for note
Like good little children, don’t worry, be happy
Now listen to what I said, in your life expect some trouble
When you worry you make it double
But don’t worry, be happy, be happy now
don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy
don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy
don’t worry, don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, don’t do it, be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) put a smile in your face
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t bring everybody down like this
don’t worry
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) it will soon pass, whatever it is
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy
(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) I’m not worried, I’m happy
Songwriters: Robert Mcferrin Jr.
Don’t Worry Be Happy lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group


Author: crazypurplemama

Adore all things purple, wife, mother, amateur photographer, dog lover & Blogger.

2 thoughts on “Watching The Past”

  1. What special memories your videos have released and how wonderful to be able to watch them all again. Your girls were and are lovely! And yes, perhaps the physical challenges and health issues have made you all closer than most families would be. A wonderful upside to your very difficult situations when they were small!

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