Bring On The Rain

Bring on the Rain ~ by Jo Dee Messina/Tim McGraw ~ a song that has given me a kick up the butt this morning. It’s as if it was written for me and turned up just when it needed to.

I was surfing the ‘net looking for ways to relieve the joint and muscle pains that are pounding my body right now. Instead of remedies I found this song, read the lyrics and found them empowering.

Before listening to the song and reading the lyrics I was feeling exceptionally sorry for myself, having a full~on pity party. I am in excruciating pain, a description I am not using lightly. The pain is all encompassing right now, joints and muscles on fire and a feeling of overwhelming fatigue to top it off.

Frustratingly it’s all my own doing because yesterday I literally powered through the day, fuelled by coffee and additional pain killers, to go on a Uni open day with my husband and daughter.

In hindsight I should have stayed at home, but I loathe giving in to my illnesses and missing out on doing things with my family. So, I loaded myself up and continued to top up the caffeine & painkillers throughout the day. I had my stick but needed my crutches, I must use crutches as per rheumatologist advice but don’t like to stand out as the disabled parent and its purely stubborn pride. The stick, sadly, was not up to the job in hand so I missed the accommodation tour.

I’m glad that I could be in the presentation though and by the end of the day my youngest had applied for the course pending exam results.

Today I have swollen ankles along with greatly inflamed Achilles & hips, tendinitis and bursitis raging, Fibro and ME piling on more symptoms such as post exertions malaise, pain and fogginess ~ mind you my family rarely notice the fogginess as I’m ditzy at the best of times.

I had started to feel sorry for myself until listening to this song, it really is uplifting, and I am “not gonna let it get me down, I’m not gonna cry.”

Life could be so much worse, I am grateful for what I have and must continue to focus on that. Feeling sorry for myself helps no one, its negative energy depleting my reserves for no gain. “‘Cause tomorrow’s another day and I’m not afraid, so bring on the rain.”

Thank you to the songwriters & singer for this beautiful song, it has uplifted me and changed my mindset today, it was the kick up the arse I needed.

No more feeling sorry for myself, life isn’t how I imagined it to be but it’s still good between the rain. Today is but a battle, not the war, I will do my best to navigate through it with as much grace as I can. So, fuck it! Bring on the rain and I’ll show you that I can get through it ~ although can’t guarantee it will be without a whimper!

Sending love to you if you are struggling, know you aren’t alone, you have a whole virtual community there for you on all social media platforms ~ you just need to reach out to them.

Bring on the Rain ~ Jo Dee Messina/Tim McGraw

Another day has almost come and gone
Can’t imagine what else could go wrong
Sometimes I’d like to hide away somewhere and lock the door

A single battle lost but not the war
‘Cause tomorrow’s another day
And I’m thirsty anyway

So bring on the rain
It’s almost like the hard times circle ’round
A couple drops and they all start coming down

Yeah, I might feel defeated,
And I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing, but I’m not dead

Tomorrow’s another day
And I’m thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

No I’m not gonna let it get me down
I’m not gonna cry
And I’m not gonna lose any sleep tonight

‘Cause tomorrow’s another day
And I’m not afraid
So bring on the rain

Tomorrow’s another day
And I’m thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

Bring on
Bring on the rain

No I’m not gonna let it get me down
I’m not gonna cry

So bring on the rain
Bring on
Bring on the rain
Bring on the rain
Bring on the rain
Bring on the rain

Songwriters: BILLY MONTANA,HELEN DARLING
© Warner/Chappell Music, Inc.

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Lazy Photography

I LOVE taking photos, I’m a rank amateur and don’t care. For me photography is a way of trying to show others how I see things and a way to escape completely from reality for a while.

My mobility is compromised more than ever these days as if having ME and Fibro isn’t enough I have also very recently been diagnosed with bilateral Trochanteric Bursitis along with bilateral Achilles Tendinitis, which is being something of a bugger these days reducing my mobility and causing me an awful lot of pain and discomfort.

This morning I received a letter from the Rheumatology Therapy Department letting me know that my referral was through and I will be sent an appointment as soon as one is available for ultrasound therapy to reduce pain and inflammation in both my ankles and hips. Followed by, once inflammation and pain has been controlled, specific exercises in both the physio room and hydrotherapy pool to strengthen and correct any damage of my muscles, ligaments and tendons.

Until I’m at that point I need crutches to walk and take pressure off the joints which are far weaker than they should be and one side is much worse than the other causing compensation issues of the stronger side. Plus all shoes/boots need special arch supports as my arches are buggered too.

My rheumatologist did note that I am pretty fucked and that had I been given the necessary therapy two years ago when it was first noted in my records then I wouldn’t be in the state I am today.

I think this video explains best how the ultrasound therapy works..

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Anyway, because of the above issues I struggle to get around and about. Knowing how much I love to take photos and see new scenery my husband has started taking me with him when he needs to pick up or drop off parts. My husband buys and sells American car parts in the UK as well as importing via both air and boat freight for his customers.

Often we go in one of his American cars/vans but sometimes we need to use the ratty transit. When we travel in these cars I love to wind the window right down and take photos as Dave drives of things that catch my eye and the passing scenery. It’s a thrill to get a clear unblurred shot and the challenge excites me. In essence it’s lazy photography, taking images whilst comfortably seated in a car with music playing and someone else driving.

Occasionally the drop off or collection points have something nearby for me to photograph whilst I wait for Dave to do the transaction and natter to another petrol head about cars, engines and the lumps of metal he lovingly imports ~ allegedly rare or much sought after car parts.

It’s a wonderful for me to pass the time and it relieves Dave’s eardrums because before the “through the window of a moving car” activity I used to babble away when he drove. I think I sometimes drove him a little mad by it ~ but God love him he puts up with me.

I wonder if it’s a kind of style that will catch on? When in UK vehicles its easier for me as I have no passing traffic to contend with, whereas in the Yanks I have to time it just right to get the picture without a car in the opposite carriageway getting in on the act.

My favourite image so far is of the statues of three silver women standing together, arms entwined, hence putting it as the featured photo.

So, here are some of my “through the moving window” photos for you to judge for yourselves whether it’s a hit or a miss as a style of photography.

Pit stop for delivery so I found some flowers by the guys fence to capture..

Off we go again..

I hope you enjoyed our trip across some of England’s beautiful countryside. Do you think this could become a “style” of photography or perhaps something just for me to enjoy?

I hope you will enjoy my next excursion ~ I will be visiting Bath and all its treasures.

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I did a thing!

Yesterday I did a thing!

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It was a very big thing ~ I went for a walk over a space of several hours to raise awareness and funds for Invest In ME Research.

Today I am somewhat broken with feet like balloons, joints and muscles seized and spasming. I’m not a pretty sight!

BUT it was a phenomenal achievement for me, mobility is a struggle and causes me an awful lot of pain due to unstable hypermobile joints and pains from ME.

I took my camera with me to photograph my walk so that my supporters can watch it and virtually join me to see where I went and what I saw.

Thankfully I am in my happy place and can recuperate on the sofa with the decking doors wide open allowing the sunshine, smells and sounds of the coast to waft in.

If you have ten to fifteen minutes to spare then put up your feet with a cuppa and join me on my walk around Primrose Valley in Filey ~ we walk across some nature areas, by some large ponds and down to the beach finally coming back via the cliffs.

Finally, I feel it’s got to be done because I am an optimist and hope folk may feel compelled to throw a few quid my way after virtually walking with me ~ it’s for a very good cause *inserts beguiling (but not in a deceptive way) eyes looking into your very soul*.

The link to donate online is here …

https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/tonkswalk2018

Or you can just follow the text instructions in this picture if you would prefer to lob me £1 or perhaps £2 via text message..

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Thank you all for either sharing and or donating my page and for all the love and encouragement I have received ~ you are all awesome!

Especially gentle high fives to all you Chronic Illness Warriors out there ~ you are fabulous, it’s not easy and at times it gets you down ~ but please know you are not alone.

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